5 days

I definitely need to update on the past five days of my life.

Let's start with Nicoles birthday on Wednesday night! :)
Nicole, I freaking love you woman. I can't tell you how much fun I had. I know it was a little crazy but I'm super glad I came out and had a good night with you and Kell.

I met some new people and spent time in Seattle. It's always good to get out and away from home. Different scenery. :) I ended up getting home around 2:30am. hahaha

Josh's birthday was Thursday. We all went to bellevue and had a good time. So many random people. I saw an old friend and caught up with everyone that was there. I dragged Kelly and Nicole along with me. :) Those girls are just a good time.

Friday was Kayla's birthday. haha. We went to cow girls. I ended up riding that mechanical bull and seriously... my legs are permanently broken. I danced with Kayla since NO ONE else would. (you guys are LAMEEEEE) It was good to just dance! Sometimes I need to dance with my girls. :)

Saturday was my mom's birthday. :) She is AMAZING! I will try to post a video of it later.... but just to clarify I have the coolest mom in the world. I love her. We went out to chopsticks and listened to the music. It was surprisingly a lot of fun. Awkward at times since it was a bar but it was fun! Chels and I haven't had a sleepover in years so we decided that since she didn't have the babies for once... we would! :) I just love her.

Anyways, I barely made it through the weekend. I mainly blame Josh.
Somehow I managed to go out every night. I lost my voice. Rode a bull. Danced in public. Spent time with the family. Did some shopping. Worked. I don't know how I am still alive but I made it.

I actually had a ton of fun! :) I don't know if I could ever go five days straight again. I am in need of a major break. My entire sleep schedule is off... The day light kind of hurts my eyes since I'm so used to being awake at night. haha, I have some recovering to do.

I am really happy with how things are going in my life right now. I know that things have to get better... Slowly but surely. I'm working on making sure i'm happy. Keeping myself busy. All that good stuff.



That is a very quick update. I'M ALIVE, yay! :)

some favorites

Things turn out best for people who make the best out of the way things turn out.

-John Wooden

Tonight I am up looking at stuff online and working, like usual.

For those of you that are obsessed with quotes like I am...I have to blog about this site that I absolutely love! It's holliesquotes.com. I started looking at the website my senior year of high school and Hollie has gotten me through some pretty rough times to say the least. I can always find something I can relate to or that is somehow exactly what I'm feeling. 

Apparently I have all these feelings all of a sudden. Super annoying actually. I don't know how people have dealt with this their whole lives. Having actual feelings is weird. I don't like it. 

I have also become obsessed with stumbleupon. (thank you miranda) I could stumble for hours. It's like pages and pages of all these things that I love. :) 

My iphone has been terrible for me. Also, Chelsea's hubby Ty got me hooked on zombie highway. ugh. It can make for a really awkward moment in public whenever I'm playing that game.

lately, those are my obsessions. 

anyone else know of some good ones?

Dare I even ask? haha

changes

love my jessa. :)

Probably 90% on the time I blog on here I don't post it to facebook but tonight I feel like sharing. :)

In my life it seems like all the weeks are blending together. I want a change. I don't know why I am like that. I'm just ready to get out of here and move on with my life. Maybe that's running away... hahaha, either way. Now I just want to figure out where to go and what to do. I've had some options in the past couple of months but none of them feel right. Plus everything with work has been crazy, so I don't feel like picking up and leaving right now is fair to everyone I work with.

I have realized recently how much I have changed in the past couple of years. For the most part it's been in the last 6 months... but I look back on pictures or moments in my life and they seem so far away now. I can hardly remember that day or what we did... and then there are moments where I remember the entire day and everything that happened. It's strange the things we remember. (or the things we don't)

I've also realized that everyone perceives things differently. I have learned so much about myself, people, work, and life in general but I wonder if someone had gone through everything that I have if they would have walked away learning the same things I have... If everyone thought the same way as me... then I would get along with everyone because we would all constantly agree... That's not the case. But that's how we learn. Sometimes it's through other people that we grow the most.

I have had the song "Love The Way You Lie" Stuck in my head for the past couple of days. It describes kind of how I feel. It's a love/hate thing. I am upset somedays, but I am happy too! I have had some horrible things happen but I have also had some amazing things happen. They even themselves out. I would not be who I am or learn the things I did if I would have never gone through the things I have. It's been quite the ride. I miss my life 5 months ago but at the same time I don't. I can't wish to be somewhere I'm not. We are meant to live our lives forward, not backwards.

I talked with someone tonight that is going through something similiar to what I went through! For the first time in months it felt good to tell someone that everything was going to be okay. One thing that he said was "that's my problem, i just sit and think and drive myself nuts. it really sucks, luke every single day I just think about how all of this could have so easily been avoided had it not been for my selfishness" and I just wish I could have hugged him. We talked about regrets and second chances... and sometimes there are no second chances. No matter what we would give to have them. We only get one chance and we mess up! We are human! I don't think we are meant to do everything right. Jesus died for our sins. Knowing that we'd mess up. That's not an open door to purposely make mistakes but he understands and gets that we make mistakes. We just have to learn. I have hurt some great people and some great people have hurt me. I learned today in a lesson that the best thing to do about that is... to forgive. It's no longer my burden to bear. God can decide what happens.

hmmm, thats all for now. ;)

Blessed

I have felt so blessed lately with the people in my life. I haven't been myself for the past couple months and every time I start to get back into the groove of things something else happens that slows me back down. With that being said I am surrounded by some amazing people. I get calls at least once a day from someone that is worried about me or wants to tell me that they are thinking of me. They don't know how much that means to me. Seriously, thank you. I am one big work in progress. It's the little things! :)

A little update on what's been going on...

For one, my wisdom teeth are impacted... All four. Which has been causing my jaw to lock up. Constantly! So I am getting them all taken out on the 4th! :( everyone I talk to has a horror story... I am not looking forward to that at all. Then as I was leaving my dentist appointment I'm on the phone with my insurance and I also almost punched a cop in the face. He gave me a ticket for talking on my cell phone. $124, thankkkkk youuuu. Not. I get that it's against the law, it was just so annoying.

Mmm, that's all I've got for now. :)
Xoxo

just feel like venting... :)

In the past couple of months my life has changed quite a bit. I have never been one to get super upset about things...but it seems like lately everything has been getting to me. I'm just on edge. It's not even that I get mad at people. It's just that things bother me or hurt my feelings really easily and it's super weird. I've been the most annoyed with people that talk about me. I'm not sure what the point of talking bad about someone is. It doesn't make them look any better. I have always tried to do my best and not talk about people. Especially people I don't know or people that are going through a rough time. I've heard the strangest things said about me. Like i'm a stalker... I would really like to meet this person I'm stalking... apparently I have all this free time I don't know about. If i'm a stalker then you might as well call me superwoman because there is no way I could fit time in to stalk someone unless you clone me. I barely have enough hours in the day as it is. Then there's the fact that I blogged about Brent. Get over it. It's my blog. I cared about him, always will. End of story. Let me blog about whatever I want. If you're going to spend the time reading my blog and then go and call people to talk crap about me, be my guest. Just so you know, you are stupid. :) Another thing, if you are only on my facebook to stalk me and talk badly about me... do yourself a favor and go to the ride side where is says unfriend. We are adults (most of us) we should act like it.

Aside from all of that. I am sooo happy!! :)
Slammed busy, but happy.
I just wanted to get that little vent off my chest.
It's just funny the things you hear about yourself sometimes. It's like... where do people come up with this stuff.